When I Was Death

Final Destination meets House of Hollow in this haunting and lyrical speculative horror about a group of girls doing Death’s bidding in exchange for preserving their own lives.

‘The kind of story I wish I could experience for the first time all over again.’ Angela Montoya, author of A Cruel Thirst

Roslyn Volk isn’t herself any more. It’s been almost a year since her older sister, Adeline, died under suspicious circumstances, and she’s still shackled by grief. When six mysterious girls appear in town one morning, Roslyn finds herself inexplicably drawn to them, soon learning that Adeline spent her last summer with the group.

Desperate to find out what really happened to her sister, Roslyn agrees to accompany the girls on their road trip. But this strange sisterhood share an inconceivable secret. All of them have been spared from Death’s clutches and now must pay for the privilege. Gifted with Death’s touch, the girls travel the country reaping other people's souls in return for preserving their own lives.

As Roslyn becomes more entangled with the girls, in particular the group's leader Shiloh who she gravitates towards, it becomes clear there is only one way to discover the truth about her sister. She must strike her own deal with Death . . .

Review

‘Atmospheric and achingly lyrical. When I Was Death is a tale of untamed girlhood, defiant loyalty and a relentless search for truth.’ Sophie Clark, author of Cruel is the Light

‘Henderson’s hauntingly beautiful prose explores how girlhood and grief are often intertwined. I savoured every single page.’ Cynthia Murphy, author of Win Lose Kill Die

‘Hauntingly beautiful and equally heart-wrenching, When I Was Death explores love and loss in a way that both hurts and heals. Henderson has crafted an intimate, powerful and utterly unputdownable tale.’ Channelle Desamours, author of Needy Little Things

‘A searing portrayal of girlhood, at once sparkling and violently dark. When I Was Death is thrilling and wholly original.’ Goldy Moldavsky, author of The Last Girl

‘This is girlhood at its darkest and most glittering. When I Was Death is the culty road trip fantasy of your dreams. It's horror with heart, unafraid to explore the sharp edges of friendship and sisterhood.’ Maria Meservey, author of The Ironfell Inheritance

‘Henderson’s prose glows with honesty, her characters richly textured and utterly alive.’ Abby Dewsnup, author of Rabbit Heart

‘I couldn’t put it down! When I Was Death is brilliant from start to finish.’ Abiola Bello, author of Love in Winter Wonderland

‘A beautiful exploration of grief and girlhood. Five stars. I'll be haunted by this one for a long time.’ Beth Tomlin, author of To Hell With You

About the Author

Alexis Henderson is a speculative fiction writer with a penchant for dark fantasy, witchcraft and cosmic horror. Growing up in one of America’s most haunted cities, Savannah, Georgia, instilled in her a life-long love of ghost stories. When she doesn’t have her nose buried in a book, you can find her painting or watching horror movies with her feline familiar. Her acclaimed adult books include The Year of the Witching, House of Hunger and An Academy for Liars. Her debut YA novel, When I Was Death, publishes in March 2026.