The Way I Am Now

The highly anticipated sequel to the internationally bestselling TikTok sensation The Way I Used To Be

Eden used to believe the only person who could save her was Josh. He was everything that was good in her world – an open heart, a tender touch, a kind smile – but he couldn’t be her saviour. Eden had to do that for herself.

Back in high school, they never had a fair shot at a healthy relationship. Eden carried the burden of a devastating assault, while Josh struggled with the demons of his alcoholic father. Now that Eden has faced up to her attacker and is starting college, they might finally be in the right place at the right time...

But can their love withstand the chaos of college life and the crushing realities of a trial that will determine whether Eden gets the justice she deserves?

Review

'Amber Smith has a way of holding our hearts so even the hardest things seem possible... She shows us that the potential of love and healing, no matter how messy, are already, and always, inside us.' Amy Reed, author of The Nowhere Girls

‘An authentic, compassionate look at the early college years. The delicate balance between romance and recovery is calibrated magnificently here.’ Irish Times 

'Amber Smith centers the complex healing process and evolution of a promising relationship in The Way I Am Now.' Publisher's Weekly

About the Author

Amber Smith is the New York Times bestselling author of the young adult novels The Way I Used to Be and The Last to Let Go. An advocate for increased awareness of gendered violence, as well as LGBTQ equality, she writes in the hope that her books can help to foster change and spark dialogue surrounding these issues. She grew up in Buffalo, New York, and now lives in Charlotte, North Carolina, with her partner and their ever-growing family of rescue dogs and cats.